Black fingernails
Jan. 8th, 2003 12:27 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elfyI want to write in german and english all the time... but that means even more time effort and again it is so late that I am near the point of not writing anything. Writing in german means taking the opionen from quite some of the people on my list to understand my entry, writing in english often means bad grammar, very limited vokabulary and therefor meaningful entries are seldom.
ah, anyway. i didn't plan to write that, it just came to my mind.
i'm tired, but at least not cold anymore. fuchs made me a hot choclate a while ago and that was so nice of her. i love living in a... WG. in a shared appartment or whatever you call it in english....
strange mood today... kind of... don't know. i wasn't feeling that well, maybe i'm exhausted from sleeping not enough the last days. but the strange feeling came from trying to surpress that as much as possible. not for the outside (this is a thing i do in genereal, hiding bad moods from others), but surpressing it inside of me. as a result i felt kind of like in a vacuum...
the whole evening i watched tv... now i'm so sleepy... but there were kinda some things i wanted to do, again i didn't do them. just caled my father... he still didn't transfer any money, which makes me really sad. my bank account looks horrible, also because i calculated with the money he wanted to give me. i'll not starve, but it looks ugly. it'll be better in 2 or 3 month, but right now... *sigh* anyway.
work is okay right now. i'm not bored and it's not too much.
but i think i'm already sure i don't want to sty there after my apprentice-ship. it's nice, but... i don't now. i often feel as if i don't belong to these people. i am a stranger, yes. not around my friends, but too people like my co-workers, because they are... so normal. don't know. i have no clue if it will be better anywhere else. if not... hm, not sure. it's not that i don't like it there, i think it's okay, but just... just... the connection isn't there.
there is so much to tell in my head, like always. also kind of very private things, which i'd also like to talk about, just because they make me happy or... thoughtful. but then, it is all a big mess right now.
a thousand comments wait for me to be answered... thanks for all the nice wishes to my 2nd birthday at livejourna :) i hope nobody minds that i don't answer to these comments personally.
sleep well *hugs to all*
ah, anyway. i didn't plan to write that, it just came to my mind.
i'm tired, but at least not cold anymore. fuchs made me a hot choclate a while ago and that was so nice of her. i love living in a... WG. in a shared appartment or whatever you call it in english....
strange mood today... kind of... don't know. i wasn't feeling that well, maybe i'm exhausted from sleeping not enough the last days. but the strange feeling came from trying to surpress that as much as possible. not for the outside (this is a thing i do in genereal, hiding bad moods from others), but surpressing it inside of me. as a result i felt kind of like in a vacuum...
the whole evening i watched tv... now i'm so sleepy... but there were kinda some things i wanted to do, again i didn't do them. just caled my father... he still didn't transfer any money, which makes me really sad. my bank account looks horrible, also because i calculated with the money he wanted to give me. i'll not starve, but it looks ugly. it'll be better in 2 or 3 month, but right now... *sigh* anyway.
work is okay right now. i'm not bored and it's not too much.
but i think i'm already sure i don't want to sty there after my apprentice-ship. it's nice, but... i don't now. i often feel as if i don't belong to these people. i am a stranger, yes. not around my friends, but too people like my co-workers, because they are... so normal. don't know. i have no clue if it will be better anywhere else. if not... hm, not sure. it's not that i don't like it there, i think it's okay, but just... just... the connection isn't there.
there is so much to tell in my head, like always. also kind of very private things, which i'd also like to talk about, just because they make me happy or... thoughtful. but then, it is all a big mess right now.
a thousand comments wait for me to be answered... thanks for all the nice wishes to my 2nd birthday at livejourna :) i hope nobody minds that i don't answer to these comments personally.
sleep well *hugs to all*
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Date: 2003-01-07 03:46 pm (UTC)I have to ask though, what do black fingernails have to do with the entry?
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Date: 2003-01-08 12:51 am (UTC)(no subject)
1. I've noticed long ago that I can find some experience similar to almost everything that I read here in LJ, but I do not want to discuss it because all that is not important to me in this particular moment. Still right now I feel almost the same about my job and social life and all that... I want to know what do you mean by "normal"?
2. Not so long ago I was looking for lj users writing in German or Polish... So they prooved to be not so easy to find. :) There is almost no one writing in Polish and now I'm not sure about German after your post... Do people use German in LJ? While there is a great russian speaking share among lj users... Is LJ popular in Germany?
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Date: 2003-01-08 11:39 am (UTC)2) Oh, I have many german writing friends on my list... maybe you could have a look at
LJ is not that well known in germany, but we have a few thousand users, i think. not sure about the stats. Ok, looked it up, ~3100 german LJ users.
oh and... i'm sorry i didn't add you to my friendslist... as you said yourself, you write in russian and i can't read a thing...
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Date: 2003-01-10 07:00 am (UTC)Sometimes I write in other languages but not often :) Now I'm out of internet, I can use it only at work, but I have some more questions and I'd like to talk to you after I'm back in the net :)
And I have 2 more journals, where I write in english, but I'm not sure people would really like them :) Still I hope I'll make them public soon :)