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Oct. 27th, 2003 11:36 pmI'm very tired.
And it's only 23.00...
Was in the cinema with Barbara, saw Secretary with her. She liked it as well, thats nice.
Miss my boy. He wrote me a sweet textmessage last night, didn't come around to reply to it until now, will so before I sleep.
Hm, LJ is acting weird.
I need holidays. Long, long holidays. Like... half a year or so. Just (paid!!!) doing nothing. That'd be fine.
I dreamt about sex two times in the last four/five days. But in both cases I woke up halfway, not sure, but I can only remember parts of it.
And I just had a highly interessting/amusing/funny talk with seefuchs. *giggles*
There are so many questions in my head. So many things I think about. Many repeat themselves again and again. I wonder which way I will die and when. It seems to get harder everyday to understand ignorant people. Or why someone smokes. I just don't get it why someone would willingly spend money on something that smells so bad, doesn't taste well and makes you ill. In a rather short time I noticed two times that I am more... hm, tolerant towards people generally not liked buy others. Others make fun of them and I think it's just mean. Worst thing is when someone tries to convince me why it's natural to make fun of someone like 'these people'.
If I analyse myself too much? Or not enough? I think about my own behavior very much. I try to explain to myself why I do this and that. From that comes my need to explain myself to others as well all the time. I am sure I annoy quite sometimes with that.
(my knee hurts. and my hips. just this stinging pain. gna. f*ck.)
And it's only 23.00...
Was in the cinema with Barbara, saw Secretary with her. She liked it as well, thats nice.
Miss my boy. He wrote me a sweet textmessage last night, didn't come around to reply to it until now, will so before I sleep.
Hm, LJ is acting weird.
I need holidays. Long, long holidays. Like... half a year or so. Just (paid!!!) doing nothing. That'd be fine.
I dreamt about sex two times in the last four/five days. But in both cases I woke up halfway, not sure, but I can only remember parts of it.
And I just had a highly interessting/amusing/funny talk with seefuchs. *giggles*
There are so many questions in my head. So many things I think about. Many repeat themselves again and again. I wonder which way I will die and when. It seems to get harder everyday to understand ignorant people. Or why someone smokes. I just don't get it why someone would willingly spend money on something that smells so bad, doesn't taste well and makes you ill. In a rather short time I noticed two times that I am more... hm, tolerant towards people generally not liked buy others. Others make fun of them and I think it's just mean. Worst thing is when someone tries to convince me why it's natural to make fun of someone like 'these people'.
If I analyse myself too much? Or not enough? I think about my own behavior very much. I try to explain to myself why I do this and that. From that comes my need to explain myself to others as well all the time. I am sure I annoy quite sometimes with that.
(my knee hurts. and my hips. just this stinging pain. gna. f*ck.)