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i'm tired.
but i feel comforable. i'm playing again, yeah, now we started with erin.
i want to know what happens, but i fear zorn will go soon. i don't like this peter. hm. and i can't get in my head that he is about 25 or so, for me he is 40.

i feel so... full.
of emotion. but i can't put it anywhere.

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my right feet is cold.
in half an hour i have to go to university. siiigh. just for politics. i'll see how it is.

my dear Nic, use your LJ sometimes, i want to read more about you.
i hope, i really hope you like what i've sent you.

o, go and listen to the song i am listening right now, its good. really. very... forcefull? strong?

I want my Marilyn Manson CD back!!!

i'm talking to tweaker right now. i know him since ages - in internet times - i think. he is a nice guy, loves to think and talk very much and we had some nice converstaion already. and he is good at writing. unfotunatly most of his letter got to long for me to answer. sounds dumb, but the longer a mail is, the more likely my answer will need time.
sigh.

Erin Erin Erin...
I stopped playing Jack and Ferri for a while for playing Erin. I already miss my angel. Heh.

i'm confusing tweaker with my rpgs, i fear...

did i already tell you that my cat is crazy? i think so. anyway. she is.

Komm schließ die Augen... Oh, i like that song, too (Vollmond by In extremo).

i fear it isn't good to listen to music over headphones, i don't hear the telephone.
anyway.
hmmmhmmmmmmhmhmhmmmmm...

The main thing in my rpg seems to be finding the true love and to keep it, whatever comes. Is that normal? Maybe. I like this kind of play. Of thought.
I want to know who Erin will find.

I still feel like so full. But slowly i fear it could start hurting, if i can't put my emotions anywhere. It feels strange. Well and worse.

So much.

Raindrops

what to do?

its hard to stay optimistic if all others are this depressed. tjulan and dmer shout at me, i have to less time, just play with zorn the whole time. sigh. yeah. but i saw, i just made GM all the time because tehre was no one who wanted to play with me as a chara and was good enough for me. now i found someone and i am happy and addicted and they are angry. sigh.
badbad me.

r a i n d r o p s

i worry about ela, sounds very depressed.
why are there so many ppl who can't see the beauty in life?
they just need to look at the little things. they need to learn not to take care so much about what others do to them, but to care for themselves. not to be egoistic, but to respect yourself.
it depends on yourself, how worth your life is.

rain... r a i n ... d r o p s

make it worth.
why?
for yourself.
its more easy then.
its hard to get there, i know.
i have to fight myself.
never able to satisfy everyone.
i want it, i can't and they don't look on what i wanted but on what i did.
thats really hard, but i have to live with it.
so i do.

i need some sleep.
later i want to write a 'Tagebuch' - entry and work on my hp.
lets see.

g r e y s k y

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