Green eyes

[elfy]

A dreamer, a skater, a magician, a computer nerd, a musician, a catlover, a thinker... and much more.
He was here from friday until now and we had a very nice time. I am quite unsure about many things, about more then I thought, but he really tries to make me feel safe. No, he not only tries, I feel safe, even if some things need much time until they're said.
I still don't know how to call it. How to call whats going on. I don't want to give it a name.
I love to watch him skating. I can't even stand on that board, I tried it.
It's all so strange. Looking at it from the outside makes me wonder again and again. We get along so well, even if we are so different. But then we have so much in common, it's strange again.
And still I have to fight my fears, my sorrow and past memories. I think about how it may end before it even had really begun. I suspect so many negative things, just from old expieriences.
But it gives me much hope I found someone I feel so comfortable with again in that way.

Tomorrow is Alphas birthday, we got quite some nice things for her. Makes me think about my birthday, it's so soon. I have to make a little wishlist,t'was requested. Will do so later this evening.
We will go to the Volksgarten tomorrow eveing to celebrate Alphas birthday, I hope the weather will be good.
And I forgot what else I wanted to write. Hmmm...
Well, maybe later. Now I'll go and do the dishes.

Comments

[crowkeeper.livejournal.com]

Don't worry I just try! If you want to fly you must let yourself fall, so - let life play the cards, it's unpredictable what will happen. :) Cheery days...

[elfy.livejournal.com]

Thanks...

But what do you just try?

[fuchs.livejournal.com]

You two look absolutely beautiful together.

[(Anonymous)]

wouldn't it be a pitty if you'd allow something that lies far behind to catch up again only to disturb or perhaps destroy whats just started?!? Don't let this happen to you, don't you think you deserve to be happy? So just be it! :)
Be responsible for your life, know what it is you want and do everything to get it! Rather simple isn't it? ^^

And you don't have to find a name for it, names are burdened with so many different meanings, just try to find a place inside of you to feel it :)
good luck :)

Öhmmm...

[crowkeeper.livejournal.com]

Ich versuche eigentlich gar nichts zu erreichen. Nur solltest du es nicht so machen wie ich und jahrelang zögern und Fehlschläge fürchten, daß bringt nämlich gar nix (ich muß es wissen, schließlich mache ich es dauernd falsch!)