Responsibility

First the course today, which was interesting/boring again, like yesterday.
Then work again, I hoped to be able to just go home today, but Töffi asked me to come.
Drove home with a total stranger, older guy, also a designer, as I found out.
Got a letter from the Artschool that they will not take me.
... well, yes, I'm sad about that. But then, it's my own fault, as I could have put more effort into my application. But it's not exactly a selfesteem boost either. *sigh* It would have been just too nice. Well, maybe the KISD will work out, I am just not sure if I want to attend this school. But well, it's the last one directly here in Cologne.
Soon I will stand on my own feet completely and I fear that a bit. I was asked for my ID card a few days ago and was pretty amused by this. But then, I don't feel adult anyway. I feel as if I'll not get adult the next years, either. But still I am strangely confident I will somehow manage to follow the direction I am going right now. I probably really only want to study again because it's more fun than working and less responsibility, somehow.
Oh, I'm late! I have to do the dishes and take a shower and then I'll leave and go to the cinema and see M and for a few hours I will not think about all that 'important stuff' :)
No time for a translation, sorry.