rain and writing and my grandmother

its raining outside, heavy clouds are passing by and it is somewhat dark in here. i would like to go on writing for nanowrimo, but i have to answer a letter.
got back the developed halloween pics today, most are good and funny. i will post some later, but probably friends only. i noticed many of my last entries are friends only, at least the... important ones. hmm...
i am thinking about making my new icon my default one. i'll see.
i like that weather, but only as long as i can stay inside... in an hour i have to go outside... hm.
my cat loves to ly between my legs when i sleep. thats cute, but makes it hard for me to move, i don't want to wake her up :) i am relieved that she is better now. she aso started to like these drops, she never liked them before.
yesterday i cleaned the cage of the rats. i should do that more often, really.
god, my life is so boring.
somehow.
on the other side... hm.
i feel better then yesterday evening, that was really horrible. i don't like to feel that way. i must not forget to make these two phonecalls.

oh. i forgot to tell something. -_-
the mother of my father died at the beginning of october. yes, my grandma. i am not sure what to think or to feel about that. i didn't know her... i visited her a year ago once and then we met on christmas again... i wanted to visit her more often, but... i just didn't do it. i didn't meet or knew her before, she was a nice old lady, a stranger to me. somehow i am sad, another part doesn't really care. as i called my father a few days ago, to ask him about my money again i didn't knew about what has happened and he asked me if i don't know it. i said, 'no, what?' and then he told me his mother died 3 weeks ago. i was sorry, but i don't know how he thinks i should have known that. we didn't have contact and even he didn't call me to tell me, he never calls me.
*sigh*