files, porn, money, life

sigh.
-_-
by accident i deleted a file. the file where i stored all sorts of random notes. it was on my desktop and everytime i needed to write something down, i put it in there. now it is lost. accidently saved something over it. -_-
f*ck.

watched much for porn yesterday and today. found some nice sites. but... ah, don't know.

i am so very tired.
i have to do some things before the yaoi-con.
have to scan dojinshi, have to burn cds.
i found out that asuka8 has many, many zettai reido... *siiigh*

sivan, will you icq me also, that i will have you on my icq list again?

i want my camera back.
i want a nikon coolpix 995.

my father wasn't reachable today. 18.000 DM. *sigh*

my life is directionless.
i should stop talking about myself.

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i am nervous. and i don't know why.
i am tired like hell and full of energy.

i talk to tjulan about the kakao on my birthday.
it was horror, i know, but somehow i wish this feeling back.
i didn't talk while i was high.
i don't know why.

Thanks, Sae.

I realoaded this often, that I began to think it is correct. *g*
Oh my, oh my...

http://www.antispin.net/~martine/cgi-bin/insanity.cgi?daydreamersrest

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Crawling - Linkin Park

,, Crawling''
Linkin Park

Chorus:
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

There's something inside me that pulls
beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
this lack of self-control
I fear is never-ending
Controlling, I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidense, I'm convinced
there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Chorus

Discomfort endlessly has pulled itself
upon me
Distracting (distracting) reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own
reflection
(My own reflection)
It's haunting(it's haunting) how I can't seem
to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidense, I'm convinced
there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Chorus (2)

There's something inside me that pulls
beneath the surface
(Consuming) Confusing what is real
this lack of self-control I fear is never-ending
(Controlling)
Confusing what is real

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Again a new usericon, not a default one, but for a certain mood again.