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i want to go to bed.
i will go to my bed. soon.

but i don't want to sleep.
i want to lay there and enjoy the feeling of 'being-tired-but-could-sleep'.

i want to be outside at the warm nights.
i love the winter.
i love summernights.
and summerdays.

every season is nice in one or the other way.

when most people say, its too hot, i feel quite comfortable.

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I *hate* senselsss waiting.

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I feel so strange.
Blah. -_-

a few hours ago i thought about that life is what you make out of it. the feeling of life is what you make out of it. if you are happy depends mostly on you, doesn't matter which situation you are in. i think that. on the other side i am... not able to feel happy. at least not right now.
i'm in the constant mood of... life is work, life is stress, life is... don't know. everything else but satisfaction.