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Still listening to Marilyn.

Looking at darksites.com right now, if it is a good hoster. They seem good, but incredible slow, unfortunatly. Sigh.

One of my characters in rpg, Keyal, seems to get a slightly sadistic touch. At least he enjoys to... 'play' rape with his husband. Yes, *his* *husband*. At least Atrinjel seems also to enjoy beeing the victim.

Tonight was cruel. Couldn't sleep. Woke up every hour or so. Why? because of my bf. Sigh.

It's wednesday. On friday I'll went to Zorn, on sunday to D'mer.

I'm so happy, got some feedback on my new story, 'Die Tochter des Henkers'. Will be my first f/f.

Ok, this darksites thing is more then slow... sigh.

Elfwood gets more and more realy worse members. Ok, I'm not this goot, but some of the galleris are really just crap!

I'm hungry.

An I feel so lazy.

Last days I thought about death, don't know why, maybe because I do so often.
I want to believe, that there is a life afterwards, a life I choose.
I fear there is nothing. Thats really scary for me.
I mean,... 'Nothing' will not be horrible or scary, I will not feel anything, there is 'nothing' to fear. But... I fear to be... gone. A very olf fear of the human kind, isn't it?
I hope there'll be the day I am old enough to not fear it anymore.

Beauty!

I saw such a beautiful rat! It was grey, lightgrey, nearly like silver, all over, soooo beautiful *_*
But it was a boy! *cries* I have girls only ;_;
He was soooooo... I can't describe it! Fur like the color of the evenig clouds I love so much... sigh.